alone

The worst kind of alone is when you thought you weren't.

Because at least when you know you're alone, you have a realistic idea of the situation and can plan accordingly.  You feel terrible, but at least you know your limits.

But when you think you have friends, but you really don't, you still have hope.  You call out for help, but no one comes.  You think a rescue is on the way...but it's not.  You just sit there--pathetic, helpless, and alone.  Alone, abandoned, and clinging to a false hope. 

And that's the worst kind.

a path i've walked before

Even though I've walked this path before, it hasn't gotten any easier.

The mountains are just as high and hard to climb as before.
The deserts are just as hot and dry as I remembered.
The valleys are just as depressing and low as I knew they would be.
And the rivers are just as wide and the current just as strong.
And as I walk alone, I realize it would be easier with you by my side.

But do I want that?
Do I want you to do something that you don't want to?
Do I want to sacrifice your feelings for mine?
Of course I would love for things to be easier.
And I would love to have you here.
But I think even more, I want you to be happy.

So I walk this path, well worn by my own footsteps.
Climbing, swimming, running, walking, tripping, stumbling, rising, falling.
Through all these trials and troubles.
Alone.

And even though I've walked this path before, it hasn't gotten any easier.
Only more familiar.

someone, someday, somewhere

Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
I don't know when it'll be,
but Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
I'll find the one for me

Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
whether near or far away,
as long as I believe it,
everything will be okay

after Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
I'll never be alone,
but until that Someday,
I'm fine here on my own

Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
I'm sure it will be great,
I wish it would come sooner,
but I guess I'll have to wait

Someone, Someday, Somewhere,
I'm hoping that it's true,
that Somehow, Someday, Somewhere,
that Someone will be you